I’m on WordPress

I just moved this blog from MSN Spaces to WordPress , for nostalgia reasons only. I won’t be updating it anymore. If you’re a friend of mine, you’ll know where to find me.

Cheers 🙂


ah .. well i was just thinking that my space URL name is crap .. nothing cool or original .. i mean, i could have named it after one of the million twisted things in my deranged, fucked-up imagination .. but I ended up naming it after myself & my year of birth .. GAAAH !! .. and u can’t change it either .. ya I can delete it & create a new one .. but why bother ?…

Ok whatever .. 11:30 pm on Tuesday night isn’t the best time to write an entry .. i prefer to write on Sandaes after the hang-over – is – over

Do you know the TV programme "FREAKS" ?… THIS IS SICK MAN !!!!!

>> by the way , Forensic medicine is interesting



1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. Without you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique, in your own way.

9. Someone that you don’t know even exists, loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned it’s back on you, take a look, you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won’t get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it.

13. Always remember complements you received, forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them, you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they’re great.

like .. a poem

i was reading an article on the internet and the following words caught my attention "dead without death" and it influenced me to write the following …

when things gets hard

and you have no choice

there’s no way out

except by dying

but you don’t know how

and you die trying to die

then you realize

you’re already dead

dead without death


when you live your best days with someone

with nothing and no one comparing to your love

because it’s perfect..





but suddenly

without even realizing 

you find yourself alone

without this someone

with no reason or explanation

you’re dead without death


when you wake up everyday

asking yourself who am I and what am I doing here?

and you can’t find an answer

but you still get up anyway

you eat .. drink .. study .. work .. sleep

then you wake up the next day

asking yourself the same question

but still you get up anyway

then you know

you’re dead without death


when you sit with the crowd

listening silently to all the mindless blabber

"i did this" .. "i ate that" .. "listen to my joke"

you’re lost in your own thoughts

you feel strange .. alone and desolate ..

you get bored

counting the seconds to leave

and be alone

but when you do

your own thoughts become a heavy burden

and you long for someone to talk to

you’re dead without death



There’s someone dwelling amongst you

dead at heart

dead at soul

but yet still alive

that person is me

Dead without death

Lithuanian Language Exam

Today I had my Lithuanian language exam which allows me to stay here next year for my year of practice. It was hard ! Grammar was really hard & I had to write a text.They focus a lot on spelling mistakes so I don’t know, but I did well in reading, talking & comprehension! so i’m hoping for the best  It was a beautfiul day today..Girls were staring at me in the street..It’s always a good feeling  I didn’t talk to any of them though ‘cuz .. well I’m not in the mood right now, but I’m going "hunting" next week for sure

Nothing much is going on – I’m going to watch Dr.Strangelove.


At Last .. TV !!

 Finally, 2 months after it a-sploded, i decided it was time to fix my TV  so yesterday, I called the repairman who happens to work just next door, he came over & helped me take the TV down to his shop. Well – going down 5 floors was okay but my hands got very sweaty & my back started to hurt a bit. Today he called me and said it’s ready, and offered to help me carry it back..but believe it or not..I was out of breath 1 minute later and my arm cramped !.. I could barely hold it & I lost grip a couple of times…God! I’m so out of shape!!!…I remember when I bought it 5 years ago, I carried it up on my own like a cardboard box! he had to carry it up all 5 floors (yeah there’s no elevator) almost by himself ! i was supporting it a bit but not really holding it ! I’m so out of shape!    anyway i tipped him a couple $ extra!

It costed me about 30$ (that’s 1/3 of the price i’m intending to sell it at) but it works .. and when i switched it on .. the first thing i saw was .. ZEIN VERGI !…yeah the CNN anchor .. I forgot how pretty this woman is  LoL !

   I’m off to enjoy my TV   

>> Attached is a pic of the view outside my kitchen window – I just love spring rain! it makes everything look greener , fresher & livelier ! 

Today I’m Happy

I know you probably wonder from time to time what you mean to me. So I’d like to share this thought with you, to tell you that you mean the world to me… Do you know how important you are to me? Think of something you couldn’t live without … and multiply it by a hundred. Think of what happiness means to you … and add it to the feeling you get on the best days you’ve ever had. Add up all your best feelings and take away all the rest… and what you’re left with is exactly how I feel about you. You matter more to me than you can imagine and much more than I’ll ever be able to explain. – Alin Austin

Special Dedication to Greta .. Happy Birthday Sunshine  

May 2nd – Always on my mind

Big ups to my friends : Nad , Patoosh , Kate , Angel , Tiffanee & Agne


>> on Neopets (im lurved :p)

devilinred621 has given you Heart Shaped Charm.


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 Angel EviL [devilinred621] Sent: 30/4/2005 02:25am Subject: Be Gentle w/my Heart Folder: Inbox Message:

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HAD I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

You always have and always will hold my heart, handle with care and care about it as much as it cares about you.

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