more ranting…

My dad called me last night while I was sleeping wasn’t late or anyhing i just crashed early after the Freezing incident! anyway he was like – Listen I got 1 minute left on this card after i last called you so i just want to say hi & we have to talk like in "Question pour un Champion" (a french quiz program where you have to press the button to answer) so I was like Ok, so he said why didn’t u answer you other phone?Are you okay?how’s your health?how’s studies? I miss you! I saw a guy & I thought he’s one of your old friends but he wasn’t..ok bye take care!!..i was barely able to say more than Ummm, Aha & Oh!  O_o the whole thing took 56 seconds!

 On the other hand, the girl broke up with me (not that it really matters anymore)..and i bit my lip by mistake while having it’s swollen 3 times its original size & hurts a lot T_T i tried ice – i hope it helps!
nothing’s good going on right now .. well i duno .. i’m meeting my best friend today .. she’s a real angel but she also has her problems & she’ll be helping me with mine .. and i feel guilty about it …

I had some interesting conversations on MSN last night but my junkpiece of a laptop froze and I lost them .. Bleh .. they’d have showed you how deranged & crazy I am .. well maybe next time >_< 

I’m downloading "Lost Highway" .. anyone out there likes David Lynch?! and .. btw .. if anyone out there got anything for Clan of Xymox and can send me some songs (or albums ~_^ ) via IM (msn or yahoo) please leave a comment & i’ll get back to you. Thx ! it’s hard to find their songs on the internet & the ones on emule are too slow..!


Feel free to skip this if you’re not a neopets player

My gallery "civilizations" was frozen earlier tonight when I was posting on the chat boards looking for an item to buy..i can’t explain what happened because i don’t know.. all i know is that i was logged out and couldn’t sign in again because of that horrible page with the chia police on it accusing me of foul language!!..I have put more than 100k into that gallery in 1 week .. what i’m really feeling bad about is not the 100k .. it’s the fact that someone else might be in trouble because of me – a really nice person..well i hope not because i won’t be able to forgive myself..and now iam scared of typing ANY word anywhere on the site..anyway i just got a neomail from her saying everything will be alright so iam glad ^_^ i won’t make this gallery again..or maybe i will…I better save my np’s for now & study for my exam

Do you know this song?


Sleep will not come to this tired body now
Peace will not come to this lonely heart
There are some things I’ll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
I need you tonight
I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
Cause I’ll always miss her wherever she goes
And I’ll always need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone to ease my mind
But sometimes a someone is so hard to find
And I’ll do anything to keep her here tonight
And I’ll say anything to make her feel alright
And I’ll be anything to keep her here tonight
Cause I want you to stay, with me
I need you tonight
She comes to me like an angel out of time
As I play the part of a saint on my knees
There are some things I’ll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire for you

Quizzes – Part 2

What is your element?

Your element is Ice. This element may seem a little odd, but this is a side-effect from when the element of Water gets to hurt. Once you were a content soul, and happy with life. But then something happened. Not necessarily on one day, it probably happened gradually over time. You lost your will to care and became even more reserved from the world. People had hurt you in ways you do not want to remember and now you isolate yourself from them. You have turned into an outsider and probably dress more in black than you used to. Your depression is eating you up and tearing you apart and the worst part is that no one is willing to help, or so it seems. In school you are often by yourself or one single friend and you rarely seem to be truly happy anymore. Your sad, distant eyes and constant frown seems glued to your face and you need a saviour from this world. You may turn to music for understanding and sing/scream along in the lyrics to get rid of some pain. You are not very open about your problems to your family/friends, and wish that they would just notice it and make it go away. Rate and message

Which rock song are you?

You are "Bring me to life" by Evanescence. Hopeless, depressed and soulless are your keywords. Yet you have a hope, someone who can see you for who you are. Keep searching, or start to.


MAAAAAAN .. this is some scary shit !! and it’s all true too !!…

I might do some more later .. stay tuned …



I took some quizzes and here are the results. i got the idea from my friend’s journal . thanks Princess Tiffanee .. I hope you read this

?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??


A complete wild party animal. You bring out the beast in even the most reserved.You’re loud, and confident, and just out to have fun. The life and soul of the party. You are sexy and you know it. Using it to your best advantage you get what you want and laugh while you’re doing it. Positive outlook on life – but perhaps a bit crazy for most people!

What Type of Killer Are You?

You are a maniac killer.
It doesn’t matter who they are and what they have or haven’t done. You still want to kill them. And for a simple reason only; it’s fun. Seeing people in pain is like ecstasy. Maybe you have some sort of mental problems or you are this way because of previous deep scars, only you know. But now you are sadistic and maybe you only like to see a special group of people be in pain (e.g. preps). However you are not the most social person in the bunch and people think you are weird. That bothers you somewhat but atleast you can entertain yourself with daydreaming about killing them. After all, they have no idea what’s coming.

What is your connection with darkness?

Your connection with darkness is through your depression. Hated, sad and often feeling lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away from the world since you don’t want to be hurt and betrayed again. Music gives you the understanding you need to get through, it’s your "therapy". Or you express yourself through art or writing. Chances are you’re also an anti-social person, who only likes being with close friends, if even that. The world has finally showed it’s true face for you and you wish life wasn’t this miserable to live through. Maybe you’ll find happiness in the future, but right now you’re just hiding away from the world. Who needs people anyway?

What kind of Drugs are you? and how that reflect your personality?

You are Heroin (aka: smack, dope, brown sugar…). You are the most dangerous drug between all other kinds. You are bold, deep, dark, mysterious, have your own world. You are classified as class (A) illegal drugs.

so far it’s all true..and the Vodka thing..yeah that’s totally me when iam drunk

To Be Continued…

Slayer & Iron Maiden In Poland

loreta : hey dude
loreta : wanna go to a concert?
robonx007: yeah girl..sure..
loreta : slayer is gonna play in poland
loreta : some ppl are making a trip
robonx007: when is that?
loreta : hm
loreta : hold on
loreta : // Kelione i IRON MAIDEN –
robonx007: damn

DAMN is alright!!!!!

>> On June 30, Slayer are playing in Poland …

>> on May 29, Iron Maiden .. Kreator .. Nightwish .. Behemoth .. DragonForce .. Primal Fear & Frontside are playing in the MYSTIC festival (also  in Poland…) AND I CAN’T GO TO NEITHER  This sucks more than anything that ever sucked before i CAN get a Visa .. it’s no problem .. but the timing is bad .. and I don’t know anyone to go with me..No one  in my circle of “friends” even LIKES metal…let alone travelling just for a concert (but iam ready to do it) !!! i know a few people who like Metal but i don’t know them well enough to trust them on a trip like that, you………..dissapointed once near .. yet so far!!!!


It’s been almost 2 years since Iron Maiden visited Poland. And now they are here again!!! Iron Maiden, the greatest heavy metal band in the world, will be headlining Mystic Festival on Sunday 29th May at Silesia Stadium (Stadion Śląski), Chorzów!








Elis : Dark Couds In A Perfect Sky

Elis, a Liechtenstein-based 5-piece band began as "Erben Der Schöpfung" & they released their debut, "Twilight" in 2001. Vocalist Sabine Duenser and guitarist Pete Streit continued working together and Erben Der Schopfung morphed into Elis. They released their debut, "Gods Silence Devils Temptation" in 2003 to very good reviews, and quickly followed with "Dark Clouds in a Perfect Sky" in February 2004. Their style of music is most often considered goth metal, but Elis incorporate electronics, doom, and rock into their music for a rather eclectic sound.

Following the path of bands like Lacuna Coil, Leaves’ Eyes, Darkwell, Lacrimosa & The Gathering, ELIS is trying to find a place for themselves in the world of Gothic music, and with Dark Clouds in a Perfect Sky, they succeeded in doing just that.

Let’s start with the Album Cover Artwork. Vocalist Sabine Duenser says : "The picture with the butterfly is a symbol for the album title and so it is also a symbol for the message we want to give to the listener. There’s this perfect butterfly, which is a picture of a real but dead butterfly- which is brutally speared on the sky. On the first look the picture just seems nice but when you have a closer look at it you see that it is not as nice as it seemed. The title Dark Clouds in a Perfect Sky stands for the fact that in this world there exists nothing which is perfect. Everything, even when it seems to be perfect, has also a dark and ugly side. People only can be rich, because many people are poor. We like it when the sun shines but it has the power to burn everything. The nature can be very nice but on the other hand it can destroy lives with its power. So the title is a metaphor of our music, which also combines these dark and soft elements, and the lyrics which are about this contrast between good and bad. Also in a perfect sky there can appear dark clouds." [ Copied from an interview with (Transcending the Mundane) ].

Upon first listen to Dark Clouds in A Perfect Sky, one may get the impression lead singer Sabine Duenser might be taking one too many nods from ex-Theatre of Tragedy vocalist and current Leaves’ Eyes frontwoman, Liv Kristine. When you realize Liv Kristine is also the wife of Elis producer and manager Alexander Krull, the comparison might make a little more sense.
This is not really the case, though both vocalists do share similarities in their approach. They both can, and will pull out a booming soprano when needed or lull you into a mid-tempo trance.

There are 3 tracks in the band’s native language, German : Der Letzte Tag (the last day) / Ballade (ballad) / Die Zeit (it’s time). The other songs are Anger / Lost Soul / Heart in Chains / Perfect Love / Black Angel / Devil Inside You / Rebirth / Are You Missing Me / Show Me Heaven (Bonus Cut on Digipak Release)..Emotions range fom anger (guess which song that focuses on… ) , to love (Perfect Love) , to something we all have tendency to do, thinking too much (Are You Missing Me). 

Der Letzte Tag , the album opener is bombastic with even an epic solo from Pete Streit near the conclusion. It’s just how an opening track should be. Bassist Tom Saxer is featured on a couple of songs, where his extremely capable growl lends itself to the subject matter (“Lost Soul”, “Heart in Chains”, “Are You Missing Me”).

All in all , this was an amazing listening experience. I enjoyed each & every song. However, I found myself trailing back to Black Angel ,  Show me Heaven , and Perfect Love..repeating them again & again…

Overall rating of the Album : 9/10


Warning : If you are not a Neopets won’t understand anything in this entry..but you’re welcome to read it anyway!



I’ve been playin Meepit Juice Break ALL weekend to get the Meepit Avatar (it’d be my 100th avatar) .. and FINALLY after LITERALLY burning my brain & arm feeding these retarded critters their stupid buttwipe juice .. i got the required score of 3500+ (3501 to be exact) .. i clicked "send score" only to get this message :

problems processing your score!for best result close the pop up window and re-open it to restart your game!

I WAS soooooooooooo Furious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…so i used a transmogrification potion to change my pretty uni "biso" into a mutant lenny .. earning myself the "mutant" avatar & un-leashing a new terror upon Adam, Donna & the whole TNT (the neopets team) .. and of course.. those horrible fu*king damned ugly meepits!!…

biso’s flesh twists and turns, and they starts to mutate hideously!!

Something Has Happened!
You are now eligible to use ‘Mutant JubJub’ as an avatar on the NeoBoards!

Below are pics of the Error message .. the Meepit avatar .. & Biso attacking a stupid meepit!…

F*ck IT

My first addition in a while .. and im pissed drunk..!!..yeah..feels great?,no..not when ur heart is u crazy & makin’ u sick .. so on Thursday i had my fuckin’ cardiology exam .. as i entered the exam room i felt a cold grip on my heart..i was scared..i sat down..took one look at the questions & almost fainted…they wre hard..i wasnt ready for such kind of questions..i went pale..started sweating,..i felt my heart will implode..or burst..the pain was strange..distant pain that came from somewhee deep inside…i had to be excused .. was transmited to the doctor who dagnosed me with heart arrythmia..tachycardia..flutters..due to stress..exhaustion.lack of sleep,excessive caffeine (ab)use. i also had a blood test done & i got anemia which is strange cuz i’m eatin like a pig lately..they let me go & i can re-take exam again (which is good news – yeah kinda) ..

Last night i had a visit from my 2 bestest friends ever (Greta & Ieva) with another cool dude friend and they brought a whole 1 litre of Tequilla!!MAN!!!!!……but we didnt take pix cuz phone pix suck and we gots no digicam..i tihnk it’d have been cool anyway…to take pix that is..we got Ieva a small cake cuz Friday was her birthday (:*** kisses sugar — love u) we also watched some funneh clips .. Pablo Fransesco ..hes very funny rlly..(ARNOLD IS … Little tortilla boy lol) yeah we also watched SOuth Park (lord of the rings episode) & some Mad TV clips…it was rly good time i am always so happy that my friends keep me company cuz im pretty lonely lonely lately … now im drinking Brandy w/ coke .. listening to this heart-tearing song by the Bahraini singer Khaled Sheikh – Ainaky (your eyes) .. which was originally written by Nizar Qabbani..

Below is the original poem, (with my translation) [..a few lines were omitted in the song but this is the full version] The song lyrics are included with the pics I attached 🙂 once again apologies if u can’t read arabic 😦 YOU NEED TO LEARN IT :p

 نزار قباني- نهرالأحزان

عيناكِ كنهري أحـزانِ

نهري موسيقى.. حملاني

لوراءِ، وراءِ الأزمـانِ

نهرَي موسيقى قد ضاعا

سيّدتي.. ثمَّ أضاعـاني

your eyes are two rivers of sorrow

that took me to a time beyond time

two rivers of music

in which i’m lost

الدمعُ الأسودُ فوقهما 

يتساقطُ أنغامَ  بيـانِ 

عيناكِ وتبغي وكحولي

والقدحُ العاشرُ أعماني

Black tears like flowing rains

covering your eyes..

my alcohol

I’m blinded by the 10th glass  

وأنا في المقعدِ محتـرقٌ

نيراني تأكـلُ نيـراني

أأقول أحبّكِ يا قمري؟

آهٍ لـو كانَ بإمكـاني

فأنا لا أملكُ في الدنيـا

إلا عينيـكِ وأحـزاني

I’m Burning in my seat

A fierce fire eating my fire

Shall I say I Love You, my moon

Aaah..i wish i could

for all i have are your eyes..

and my sorrows

سفني في  المرفأ باكيـةٌ

تتمزّقُ فوقَ  الخلجـانِ

ومصيري الأصفرُ حطّمني

حطّـمَ في صدري  إيماني

my ships are broken on the docks

my gloomy destiny broke me

broke my faith

أأسافرُ دونكِ ليلكـتي؟

يا ظـلَّ  الله  بأجفـاني

يا صيفي الأخضرَ ياشمسي

يا أجمـلَ.. أجمـلَ ألواني

my pretty lilac flower..shall i go on without you

when you’re a goddess’ shadow to my eyes 

my green summer .. my sun

my most beautiful..beautiful colors

هل أرحلُ عنكِ وقصّتنا

أحلى من عودةِ نيسانِ؟

أحلى من زهرةِ غاردينيا

في عُتمةِ شعـرٍ إسبـاني

يا حبّي الأوحدَ.. لا تبكي

فدموعُكِ تحفرُ وجـداني

Shall I leave you when we’re prettier than April’s coming back

or a Gardenia in a dark gypsy hair 

my one love..don’t cry

your tears burn my deep

 فأنـا  إنسـانٌ  مفقـودٌ

لا أعرفُ في الأرضِ مكاني

ضيّعـني دربي.. ضيّعَـني

إسمي.. ضيَّعَـني عنـواني

تاريخـي! ما ليَ تاريـخٌ

إنـي نسيـانُ النسيـانِ

إنـي مرسـاةٌ لا ترسـو

جـرحٌ بملامـحِ إنسـانِ

I am but a lost man

Who doesn’t know his place in this existence 

i lost my way

lost my name

lost my address

i  have no history

iam forgotten 

a broken anchor

a wound in the shape of a man

ماذا أعطيـكِ؟ أجيبيـني

قلقـي؟ إلحادي؟ غثيـاني

ماذا أعطيـكِ سـوى قدرٍ

يرقـصُ في كفِّ الشيطانِ

أنا ألـفُ أحبّكِ.. فابتعدي

عنّي.. عن نـاري ودُخاني

فأنا لا أمـلكُ في الدنيـا

إلا عينيـكِ… وأحـزاني

what shall i give you

my worries?..blasphemy? sickness

what shall i give you but an uncertain destiny  

i love you a thousand times

so stay away from me

from my burning fire

for i have nothing

but your eyes

and my sorrows




The Latest Installment of My EXIT pics

You can have it your way, how do you want it
You gon’ back that thing up or should i push up on it
Temperature rising, okay lets go to the next level
Dance floor jam packed, hot as a teakettle
I’ll break it down for you now, baby it’s simple
If you be a nympho, I’ll be a nympho
In the hotel or in the back of the rental
On the beach or in the park, it’s whatever you into
Got the magic stick, I’m the love doctor
Have your friends teasin you ’bout how sprung I gotcha
Wanna show me how you work it baby, no problem
Get on top then get to bouncing round like a low rider
I’m a seasoned vet when it come to this shit
After you work up a sweat you can play with the stick
I’m tryin to explain baby the best way I can
I melt in your mouth girl, not in your hands (ha ha)

They took this one on Saturday; I was smashed .. don’t ask 

 P.S. I dance güd 

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